Social Expectations

I was alone when I moved to this apartment after my marriage, there was lot of enthusiasm of starting my new life with my wife...first few months went just like that in arranging this rented flat...creating our own small world in this huge world...We both used to stay with our friends in hostels during the studies and to rented houses during job before our marriage....we missed that time as well and keep on sharing our stories of that life...although we were so eloped in each other that we never thought that we are missing something.... life in apartments in metro cities are too nucleus... the people next door also dont know each other....there are many facilities, clubs, activities like gym or swimming pools and top most security which is a prime issue in Delhi/NCR..The association of the apartments organizes cultural events during the festive seasons...which lets you see lots of gathering of people...few people actively participates, few just hang around, few people are just mute spectators like me and my wife...the part we miss most I believe is the criticism part....which can be done only with the close friends...people we have around us 1-2 may be were with very formal behavior..just acquaintances I presume... that time we always thought of having good friends around us in the same apartment with whom we can enjoy these moments of life...social life to be precise....one year gone...I got a news of getting one of my good friend with whom I used to stay before my marriage is also getting married...I started pushing him to shift to our apartment as that I see or expect the possibility of filling the space of my social life...It happened and we were happy with that....we were having a great time... and I started feeling that we should have more people so we have more enjoyment....I started convincing people around me who were getting married to shift in our apartment...it happened...1 more friend shifted...It felt great...although he was not very active in our social life concept but still I can count on him.... at least now in the social gatherings we were not the silent spectators.... It was my 3rd year...one of my very close and dearest friend..who was living in another city ...out of touch in communication but not in relation....has informed that he is moving to my city...I immediately started pushing him to stay with us only...his office was a little far from my place but he also couldn't resist living with me and its done....I got a lot of people around me now....going in groups for dinner, movies, places became common....I did not realize that I have started making it my habit or EXPECTATION...suddenly I also realize that in every social life there are few sour moments also...the maturity is to how you tackle it..but not everyone is so mature. I am not....these sour moments started haunting me and I started to get secluded...the social life I was dreaming of has now turned in to a mess for me...I decided to quit....stay secluded....the group I tried to create... except other I was the only on who wanted to come out from that.....This I believe is the side effect of .......SOCIAL EXPECTATIONS.....