Unbelievable pain

I remember it as though it was yesterday the pain I felt. My best friend found his girl and lost my heart. I wanted to yell at him but I knew I would loose him more. He new I was gay and didn't care. What he did not know was my love for him. I loved him but I knew he would never love me back. He had no time for me because he had a new lady who was more important to him. We finally got some time together when we went on holiday. When we got there I was mad because all he talked about was his girlfriend. When we got out of the car I went into i blind rage. "how could you replace me with HER" I yell "listen to me Jake I have not replaced you" he retaliated " when you find love you will understand". At this point I had no control "i have found love but im too afraid to tell you my feelings" i yelled with tears streaming down my face. He grabbed my arms and hugged me. I felt amazing but what he did next shocked me so much. He grabbed my face and kissed me. I finally felt his love but i new it was pitty love. I pushed him back and yelled " i dont want pitty love i want real love but you've given it to her haven't you" i ran off into the forest but i heard him chase me. "dont be silly i dont love her" he said with a tear in his eye.