Mom left, Dad beat

Have you ever felt like you just everything at once? Like everything that you wasn't greatful for having was just gone? Have you ever felt like your world all came crashing down at once? Well I have. I was one when my mom and dad got divorced, I have one sister one brother. I lived with my mom almost my whole life but when I hit 8 I started jumping back and fourth from my mom to my dad I was young and wanted to be with my sister and brother and with my dad but at the same time I wanted to be with my mom. Finally when I hit 12 I stayed with my dad for a while then he started getting touchy and started getting abusive when I wouldn't do and or let him do what he wanted. I loved him and just wanted to know why he would do stuff that he did to hurt me. Was I doing something he didn't like? Did he miss having a girlfriend? I didn't know. When I hit 13 me and my sister moved in with my mom. It was about 4 months later I didn't want to be around the drugs and the fighting constantly between her and her boyfriend so I moved back in with my dad. I thought to myself for weeks why would my mom do that stuff I mean she didn't even know what she was doing most the time. About maybe a month later my sister and mom came down to visit, my mom and sister got into a big argument so my sister came to my dads house (my house) and my mom stayed with her friend. It was a stressful day I seen my mom and sister for the first time in months screaming and throwing stuff so me and my sister and this girl name Ashlynn that practically lived with us was in the room together, We all said heck it let's take our mind off of it so we started getting high, smoking weed and my dad baked us some brownies it was my first time getting high. The next day my sister and mom made up and they went back to Maryland. Ashlynn started staying at her house for a while because her mom wanted her home for a while. My dad started touching again I sucked it up and said he'll stop. Month after month went by he was still doing this. I tried running away but my brother stopped me, I told him our dad had been touching me and he was furious he yelled at me, then he hugged me I thought for sure he'd hate me but he didn't, he told me to go in the bathroom and call our mom so I did. I was in the bathroom bawling my eyes out over the phone to my mom she couldn't understand because I was crying to much so I finally started calming down and I told her everything I was still crying but not as much. My dad showed up from work and heard me in the bathroom crying telling my mom the stuff he did to me and my brother was in his room he didn't know my dad was already home already. My dad started kicking the door really hard screaming "let me in, who the f**k are you talking to?!" I was scared I knew I eventually had to come out of the bathroom and face him. I sat in the bath tub crying wanting to die but I knew somehow someway I would get out of there and not have to deal with it anymore so about 30 minutes later I opened the bathroom door and there was the man I was most afraid of standing right there next to my brother ..... My dad. He started screaming, throwing stuff, kicking doors, got in my face, hit me and right there I knew I should of kept my mouth shut but I didn't I thought telling would help but it didn't. The next day my mm came and got me, my dad was being so sweet and acting like nothing ever happened but I could tell when I looked him in the eyes he was angry. I went with my mom we came back up to Maryland then 2 months later my moms boyfriend kicked her out so we got a place in Thornsville Ohio and my sister was living in Lancaster Ohio with my grandma. My mom got a new boy friend a few months later she was still trying to get over her last boyfriend of 8 years. I didn't like him but as long as she was happy. I started dating this boy I fell for deeply he broke up with me 5 months later I cried and cried but months later me, my mom, my moms boyfriend and his family went to the fireworks on July 3rd on my birthday and I met the sweetest guy ever his nephew he introduced me and asked if I liked his nephew and of course I did so we watched the fireworks, he asked me out and we had our first kiss with the fireworks it was the night I'll never forget. Shortly after me and my mom started staying there but sadly after a while we lost our nice house up in the country so we stayed with them. I found out later down the road the guy my mom was with had my mom getting started on harder drugs, I was scared and mad. Well awhile after they broke up and his family kicked him out because of a lot of reasons but because he was also hitting my mom. Well my mom got in contact with an old friend well my sister was at work and we had two hotel rooms and I was in my moms and her old friends room and he had stuff in a straw and nobody knew it was in there or for that matter nobody knew what was in there. My mom and her old friend went to go get my sister from work and I was high from smoking weed so I decided to stay at the hotel room and sleep. I was asleep and I heard a knock I thought it was just me because I had smoked a lot so I just woke up and looked around and I went to go lay back down and I heard a louder knock so I just said there and thought my mom wouldn't be knocking she has a key so who's knocking this late at night then they said "Police open the door." I didn't know what to do so after a few moments of thinking I opened the door. They said "We got a call of drug use and you look high where are the adults m'am?" I told them about them getting sister they needed to talk to someone because they spotted the straw so I was hoping my sister was home by now and so I called her and she she was so she came over and they took me to the squad car and waited for my mom and her old friend to get there they arrested her and him and took us to get our stuff from the other hotel room and we got a cab and went to our grandmas. My sister had the bail money to get my mom out so she did then my mom and sister went to Columbus and my mom jumped her bail and she got caught then we bailed her out again. She jumped bail again and after the whole incident of the hotel thing I wasn't allowed to see her so my grandma got custody and my mom and sister moved to Columbus. Me and my grandma argued a lot at first. I took drugs to school and sold them and the girl got caught and snitched so I got Juvy, Probation and house arrest it was not fun. I still sometimes feel abandon and like my world has crashed then I remember I have my 4 main best friends that I can trust and will help me through anything. Just remember to keep your head up things to get better, people do care and if you ever need someone to talk to about anything rather you think it's stupid I'm always here. My Kik Is stephanieRene22 ..