drug addict

court 

<i>my goal in life was living life to the full because you never know when its going to end, death is unexpected. so a way I enjoyed my life was getting high, I was falling down a wind-spiral losing all sense of control and there's no return, no escaping.</i> over the next few years I had taken my drug use to a new level I tried new drugs coke, ecstasy even became a alcoholic, I truly believed this was a way to escape all of my problems. I just made things alot worse. I had everything a beautiful family, a fantastic job, money yet i still felt the emptiness inside. I felt like I had nothing so I carried on taking the drugs but as years passed I believed I was going to permanently stop but that never happened. There was even times when I wanted to end my life completely give up.
I would give anything for all these thoughts to go away, I would prey,cry, scream but all i heard in my head was voices, I didn't go out of my home for about 3 months and even when I finally went out in public I felt everyone's eyes on me I was so paranoid. I had finally hit rock bottom, I wanted my family back, I wanted to escape so I done something about it!. I went and talked to some Councillors I went to a drug addict group and I realised I wasn't on my own there was a bunch of other people going through the same thing as me. I shared my drug story with these people I felt like I was finally somewhere where people understand what I was going through and know i'm not alone.